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~ As a matter of fact, you miss many things in life. But that does not mean that you rush back to them. At times, suffering is the only best option. That sense of loss and deprivation, that guilt that you could probably have saved it, preserved it but did not, that swelled up heart which does not burst but refuses to contain… I think they are all important things to feel. And if you’re young and you can relate to this, congratulation! You seem to have already seen a lot of things people have not. I have seen people take the easier way and refuse to accept that that’s the wrong one. I have seen people use plethora of defense mechanisms to prove why they did not choose the tougher way to do things. But the fact remains that they all failed to resist that momentary pleasure they achieved from the easier pathways. They were all too scared to accept that they would have to tear themselves apart had they chosen the tougher one. And then they make that call they should not have. And rush back to things they should not have. I don’t know if you know this or not, but our bodies are hardwired to find convenience and comfort for us. They have all let their minds trick them. Don’t do that to yourself. Don’t run for comfort and temporary pleasure. Go for things that hurt you, creates discomfort, pushes you to question yourself, forces you to see beyond the obvious and lets you discover a part of you hidden behind those excuses, vulnerabilities and defense mechanisms. One of the most herculean things to do is to fight with something deeply ingrained in your own self. Be it love for someone. Hatred. Fear. Insecurity. Or self-doubts. And one of the easiest thing is to shield them. And to take a leeway from hurting yourself badly. Its almost like closing your eyes when in danger. The danger won’t go away, pal! It would reoccur with a thousand times proliferated strength to threaten you. Don’t close your eyes. Watch it, confront it. Let it catch you. And then fight to save your life. That is when you will realise how mighty you have always been, but too scared to take that leap. That is when you will realise how much you missed out from the world each time you closed your eyes. That is when you will realise why you should not have made that call and rushed back to comfort. And you’ll turn back and watch that timid version of yourself prostrate on ground for the last time, and shall move ahead of it, never to look back again. Maybe after a while you feel a sense of loss and deprivation, that guilt that you could probably have saved it, preserved it but did not, that swelled up heart which does not burst but refuses to contain…but this time you wont rush back. Because now you know, suffering is the only best option.

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